For Will, a positive attitude has helped him get through business and personal situations. But, it is easy to be positive when all is well…but now, things are not going well for Will.

OK its, been awhile since I checked in. Today has been rough, just the usual slog, filling in resume forms online. Ima and went to a career counseling meeting the other week. They said get out there and market and network yourself. I am working on it.

I met with 2 guys looking for a CEO for an internet plan. Nice guys, but I need more than a catchy domain name and prayer right now as a career plan.

I have been keeping up the exercise and doing the routine. I have even picked up a work at home consulting gig which would pay the rent. I have experience with the counterparty and may not get paid…fool me once shame on me etc. So that is the state of the state. Ima is plugging away but scared and nervous as our funds get lower.

I am scared but plugging away as well. Neither of us has resume’s that point at any direct path. We are people who have lived in a lot of different countries and have different skills all over. Once we find the right fit it is great. Getting to that point is rough.

I have done the 40 vision thing and know that I want to build, create and innovate for people. I enjoy marketing, positioning and thinking.

Ima has experience in marketing and headhunting and running operations for our start-up. So the resumes are out there in the ether. We are waiting for those roles to start showing up in New York soon.

In the meantime, we are helping our landlord get her real estate business online and showing her how to market the community and history of homes instead the Square footage. It is a positioning and branding exercise for those of you who speak marketing.

In the meantime we are desperately trying to position and brand ourselves. I must admit that I still need to decide which path to go down. I have some very specific financial skills (hedge fund stuff I played with years ago) and some technology experience start ups and web video stuff that should be hot right now. Sounds like I should be a catch, but it isn’t that easy.

And then, a surprise blow.

Last week IMA got invited for an interview with a company she really respects and admires. The role pays 35% below what she wants but, she would like to get working all the same. I can’t blame her, I want to feel I can contribute and have something to offer. It is important to feel like you can give, contribute and receive.

Today we received notice from our tax preparer that our tax bill would be higher than we thought. We figured our withholding was being taken care of. Turns out there was an error. We owe a months worth of our old salary to the IRS. We are in debt now more than ever and this only piles another creditor onto the list. I had to deliver the news.

It isn’t easy to watch your wife cry. It is worse when you feel you are the cause of it and that it has been happening more often over the last few years. We had a frank discussion about mistakes and poor planning. I am mostly to blame. We both know we are doing our best, but right now, I feel like I have put the woman I love through a 3 years of misery. We both don’t have jobs and I need to start talking to people soon.

As entrepreneurs you struggle for a dream. As failed entrepreneurs you struggle to get your old life back. The company may be over, but the struggle feels like it is only starting.